My perilous savior
My friend, my escape, my master.
Your absence in my life, a bane
Your presence a greater bane.
But in your fumes I found solace
My back faced anyone who wouldn't embrace.
Those irrelevant, judgmental hicks
Throwing daggers at me whenever you lay between my lips.
Just as a victim worships his captor
You kept me bound yet you brought me to raptures.
Starve me of food. Make me thirst for drink
even my lover I'll part with in a mere blink.
But my comfort, be not far, stay near
Keep me shielded from their self righteous glares;
To say it to my face none would dare
But I heard their thoughts, loud and clear,
Their noses upturned, this one no man would wed
To be discarded once she has danced in his bed.
Their disdain pushed me deeper into your ever open arms.
I drew comfort from you
You drew the life out of me.
Yet my desire for you, perpetually burning
After all, unlike man, you came with a warning,
In my eyes your warning made you faultless
One I always carefully disregarded
"Smokers are liable to die young".
Just one more drag, one more puff
It was all too much, yet never enough
For all shall die, either later, or now
But we fail to understand
its not always the "when" but the "how".