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I Loved Somebody - By Iyanuoluwa Balogun




I loved somebody
Somebody more than myself
Somebody who would teach me and make me smile
I loved somebody who i thought was responsible
Somebody with the badass swag and the crazy friends
I thought i had it all
Because of course I had it all planned out
Have fun, have sex, have marriage.


Too late did I realize
That instead of fun I was getting luggage of worries
And sex that would continue till I'm all used out
Marriage was never even to come into play

I loved somebody who didnt love me
Somebody with a warped sense
Somebody who took more than he gave
Somebody who had the guts to register it in his brain that i was like
every other woman
Every other woman who had given their whole hearts to a goofy doofy sonofabitch

I loved somebody who was incapable of understanding love
Somebody who either had been hurt so much he's blinded 
or who has this big ego it would fill my grandmothers chest

So I was here
Lying on the dirt floor I had no time to clean
Crying my intestines out
My love had been wasted
My love had been shattered
I had given out the li'l fun my worried heart could offer
I'm here all used up like an angry old woman

And im getting nothing back but blames and a list of all my errors
I'll keep them to myself alright
Its all my shit and stuff, aint it?

But im not gonna give up
I'm gonna love and love, again and again
And of course all my shit belongs to me
So will I love myself dearly
Because I loved somebody
Somebody who almost showed me the trash in life
But instead showed me the golden gate of my existence.

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Iyanuoluwa Balogun is one of our blog visitors and she wants to share this poem with us. I particularly like it because it's something I can really relate to. And I like how instead of feeling despair and desolation, she had a renewed sense of hope and self-worth. 
Plus, she would like you to critique her work. Please share your thoughts. 

Comments

  1. I could relate to this. but she needs to work harder on her writing. this almost read like prose and not poetry.

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  2. We all can relate to this story. like the first person to comment says, "...this almost read like prose not poetry". More effort Iyanoluwa...Nice start too.

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  3. Nice start Iyanu. just keep writing and soon your skills would be brushed up. and don't worry, love will find you soon.

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  4. Ohhhhhhhh......brings back memories....I like the fact that you won't give up....more power to you...

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  5. Awwwwwwwww..sad but true. Most of us go through this on a daily...it is well

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  6. Kpele sweetie. good attempt but work harder at it, ok?

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  7. Thanks evrybody. Thanks Thelma. I definately will work harder. Iyanu

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  8. Love the moral of the "poem". But until you are really sure, you should not be making a permanent commitment. You have to decide whether to commit ur life to a string of failed relationships. Avoid any relationship that fits into the pattern, rather than trying to kid yourself every time that this one is different. Onyi

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  9. You've got something special, the great writings usually come from broken hearts. Keep at it and you'll get there.

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    1. thanks so very much. I appreciate

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