For a moment I'm going to take off my mask of bravery and sangfroid and just be me; the one who needs, who's vulnerable, who wishes, who misses.
I need, I wish, I miss going to bed next to you, my lips soft and raw from the hungry kisses which yours just left. Holding tightly to you as you plant a kiss on my forehead, me drifting away giving us space to sleep free, yet my legs still touching yours, your fingers gently upon mine, some part of us always intertwined.
I need, I wish, I miss waking up next to you and holding tightly still, the way my heart feels, the joy that even your morning breathe cannot kill. The warm kisses your hot breathe leaves upon mine. Knowing time has come to part, knowing still tonight we'll reconvene, knowing there's no doubting that.
I need, I wish, I miss calling you and saying "oh Lordy my boss is a prick" and you'll smile and say "sorry babe, should I come over and give him a kick?" And then I burst into laughter and pray the day to go faster, so I can get back to you my "happy ever after". I miss you calling me just to hear my voice, Just to say "I love you" and I'm reminded again why among millions you're my first choice.
I need, I wish, I miss our arguments, our little quarels, those misunderstandings. The way we'd wait to see the first to break; the first to text, the first to call. Some times it's you, sometimes me. But above all, we never for a second doubt our love, doubt our trust, question our loyalty.
I need, I wish, I miss having someone whom I can tell all my thoughts to with no words said, with our eyes and our hearts alone a thousand secrets we've shared.
I need, I wish, I miss knowing that someone has my back. Regardless of whatever, through my slip ups, through my mistakes, through my lows and my highs, you're my "ride or die". I miss knowing that someone's love is unconditional. You see me, you see me naked. You see my warts, my scars, my loose breasts, my dimpled thighs, the dark in my heart, the demons that don't depart. And still you stay, loving me unconditionally, loving me fearfully, loving me fearlessly. Loving me wholly, loving me truly, loving me freely.
I need, I wish, I miss the feel of two woven so tightly their hearts become one.
And tonight as I deeply long for you there's an ache in my heart. But above and beyond that ache my heart beats, it beats and as long as it does it means I'm alive and 'cause I'm alive I'm enough and that's enough, till you come. You will come.