I woke up smiling like I won a lottery in my sleep. My heart is so light and it almost feels like walking on cloud 9. After I spent sometime going through comments I remembered something and sobered up a little:
So last week *Dee asked if I would like to go for a party on a private beach (Ibeshe) today. I said yes but I knew I wouldn't. The first thought I had was the people, then the celebs that will be there knowing Dee's affiliation with most of them, then the possibility that it might be "all white everything" as per boat cruise and private beach things, then people running around in bikinis and shorts. Blame it on old age but even as I said yes, I knew that if asked I would lie that I have to work today.
Yesterday however I read a couple of articles on Thought Catalogue (we have a love-hate relationships. Some of the articles make me want to burst open a vein but I can't stop reading Thought Catalogue) and one was about how Introverts are losing out of a lot of things in life just because of their introversion and how they need to stop using introversion as an excuse to stay in their comfort zone.
This rang so true to me. I know that my refusal to put myself out there more may have cost me more than I care to think. I've lost opportunities to meet new people, make new friends, do some networking, create business opportunities and more just because I'm more comfortable hiding out in my room. I used to go out a lot before even when I didn't feel like but these days I just play the introvert card and stay hidden behind closed doors and watch the world through the screen of my ipad.
I decided that has got to change. Immediately I pinged Dee and said Aye! Add my name to the Guest List! I was filled with enthusiasm and zest and excitement. I called my friend *Summy to ask if she'll come through and she said yes but had her concerns; celebs, groupies, "small shidren", " Nwando what will we wear? babes I'm too grown to be going half naked and showing all my stretch marks" LOL. I told her we'd be casual and just go and have fun.
But now I woke up late and I completely forgot, it was when I was lazily going through comments that I thought; Wait, I should be on a boat by now! I placed a call and people are already there, ready to get on the boat. So, yes, errr, I'm sha not going to the parry.
Fall back plan; Movie date. (Boring life I live, I know but.... To be honest, I'm not ready to break out of this comfort zone, at least not today. I don't think Summy was too keen either because she hasn't even called me to ask what's up).
Yeah, it could also be because last night I found out my brother is attending that same party too. Nah! The thought of me flirting with some hot shirtless dude while my brother is a foot away is simply a turn off. So im'ma sit my ass down at home! (Yeah, this is another excuse to stay in my bubble).
So once again, happy new month guys.
From the depths of my heart I pray that the hopes you had in April which didn't become a reality will manifest in May, and that this month be filled with love, laughter, peace and fulfillment.
May God bless us all. Amen.