Good morning lovers.
For the past few days I've been in a zone. I guess it had something to do with the 'not where I ought to be' frame of mind.
So everyday I'm caught between praise and worship (to be honest it's not because I've been feeling like I have a lot to give praise for, but because they say that Praise is sometimes the key that opens the door) and lamenting to God. Lamenting, whining, complaining, demanding, asking, pleading, begging.
Last night I couldn't sleep (when I got back home around noon yesterday I slept from about 2pm to 8pm. So I was awake through most of the night). I couldn't sleep so I did something I don't often do. I visited Facebook. I'm not really a social network person generally but I sometimes avoid FB because there are times I go there and I leave feeling somewhat empty. Sometimes seeing people's pictures (which often aren't a true representation of their reality) reminds me of how much more I'm yet to have/accomplish/achieve.
But then yesterday I went on FB and I saw the status of one of my former classmates from Queen's College saying "Help me praise God. I'm finally a graduate!". Dear Lord, just that one sentence and I immediately felt remorseful.
Here I am complaining about this and that in spite of all that I have when someone I went to school with only just made it out of University and the person is still thankful! Why then should I open my mouth to complain?
Dear Lord, for all that I am and all that I have I give you thanks. I sincerely apologize for all the times I've failed to acknowledge your blessings and thank You for them.
Guys, no matter how bad you think your situation is, there's someone out there who's praying for just a little of what you have.
And as I write this I realize how insensitive I've been sometimes. I've got this friend who I met in Uni. She was a couple of years ahead of me but till date she's still struggling to graduate. Sometimes she calls me for a chat and asks how things are with me and I have the effrontery to complain about this and that, complaining about the inadequacies of my job or challenges I'm facing with some professional exam I'm writing when all she wants is just to leave the university....
I feel somewhat guilty and I guess this is a reminder to me and everyone else who needs to be reminded to be grateful to God for what I (we) have. No matter how bad the situation is it could actually be a lot worse.