Trust you've had a most wonderful day thus far.Actually, this poem was written by a friend of mine (ISAAC MOYINOLUWA), I do have his permission to send to you though.
While I’m waiting...
Not the most suitable or intriguing period of my life
I wonder if I am one of the peeps Jesus laid his precious sweet life for because it doesn’t seem like it
All the beautiful things and stories I have come across about the wondrous power of God begin to look like myth
The pains, anxiety and timelessness of the wait can be exhaustive *whew*
Then the people around me
Some begin to think I never deserved whatever has brought me this far
Some think ‘he’s just a confused soul who doesn’t know what next’
Some feel his sins are so grievous that God had to shut the door against (that’s true, the prayer of a sinner is an abomination unto God)
And those who are on the nice side look at me with so much pity
They feel I wallow in depression and self-pity that they can start crying immediately they set their eyes on me
But He who sits on the throne laughs
He laughs at my ignorance and naivety
He laughs at my impatience and unnecessary burden and worry
While I wait, He’s building the man of He wants in me
While I wait, He’s molding me to form He wants
While I wait, He’s teaching me that His thoughts are not mine
So Lord, I swear my allegiance
I will serve you while I’m waiting though it is painful
I will worship while I’m waiting taking every step in obedience
While I’m waiting, I won’t be faster than you
I will be running the race even while I wait.
--- Inspired by John Waller (while I’m waiting)
When I read this yesterday I just smiled. Just what I needed... So many of us are obviously passing through this gray period and thankfully most of us have the right mind sets to handle it.