Yes I am.
At least that's how I feel. I'm the only female in this place guys. I'm the only female on my team. I'm the only female on site. I'm the only female lodged in the hotel. I'm the only female I see.
It's a bit unnerving. The men see me and they're shocked. As in, the kind of shock you experience when you see a hen playing with dogs. Sometimes I feel vulnerable. Sometimes I feel naked. Most times I feel like an alien.
I'm caught between being a girly girl or being one of the guys, I wonder which will pay more?. My female friends say I should be one of the guys, I should blend in and hang out with them, have drinks with them etc.. My male friends advise that I play the girly girl part, I should flirt and be all demure.
So far I've just been me; drawing lines and creating boundaries. Let's be polite and professional and let's leave it at that. Yet I'm being friendly still, because I need friends here, this is no place for a woman. I need to have one or two people who I know have my back and are looking out for me; here isn't very female friendly.
Well I'm exhausted but I thought to drop in and say good morning. There's no network service at all at the site and I'm likely to be there all day, that means I may be off the blog all day.
Do have a blessed day ahead.
PS: it's barely been a few days and I've changed already. Last night dinner was stale bread dipped in milo. From age 3 I've always found that idea of dipping bread inside beverage and eating it soggy rather disgusting, but last night nothing tasted better. Also there's no hot water but that hasn't stopped me from taking my bath, has it?