Once upon a time I used to go to church to hear the word
To listen to the preacher and be inspired
To praise and worship and feel uplifted
To pray and be blessed
But not anymore.
Now I go to church with one thought at the forefront of my mind
I spend all week waiting for Sunday to come, Sunday comes and the service ends too soon
He sits on the same floor, at the same spot, just adjacent to me
He's always immaculately dressed, tall and well shaven
He always stands out from the crowd, a tall sexy fountain of dark chocolate
Did I add single too? Of course I searched for any rings on his left hand
When will he notice me?
How much longer can I bear to suffer in silence?
How can I arrange for us to meet?
Could he have a crush on me too?
Thelma I have a church crush and now he's the reason I go to church on Sundays
Monday to Saturday I spend fantasizing about him, imagining what he's doing,
Who he's with and if he's happy,
If he's thinking about me and impatiently waiting for Sunday service too,
Imagining how we'll finally meet.
I've played out so many scenerios in my head, but I have a favourite.
One day the preacher would say join hands with someone beside you and pray
Then from the corner of my eyes I see him pushing through and ignoring those sitting around him
He determinedly walks to my row and looks me in the eyes,
His eyes are two blazing pools of fire
Then he takes my hands in his and mutters; Let us pray.
All the while holding my gaze
I feel the electricity run through our bodies as he prays and I try not to pass out
And when the prayer ends he doesn't go back to his seat but stays closely at my side
Marking the beginning of a life long love affair
Culminating in marriage and the birth of our beautiful kids
But let me come back to reality.
What do I do;
Just casually walk over and say Hello?
Or continue to wait till he notices me?
Blog readers what do you think?
Oh well, I wrote this myself. The blog reader basically told it to me over the phone, says she cannot write or put these feelings in words so I wrote it out as best as I could from what she told me. LOL.
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