I'm starting this week with thanksgiving and a light heart. I don't know if it's the age I've gotten to but suddenly everyone only ever seems to complain, lament, whine, cry, be depressed, be in a dark place, have issues one can't seem to comprehend, or just be completely disillusioned with life.
But this morning I want to give thanks, not for any particular reason. But it feels good to be alive and healthy, have a family that's beautiful, friends that are amazing and blog readers that give me some level of joy.
My weekend was pretty cool. The only causes for concern is that I fell off the wagon. Ok, so I told you guys Uju Beibe is in town and was at her boo's sister's place. When I went for the 1 year birthday party on Saturday I actually thought that was a hotel, I had no idea that was her home! I went back yesterday and Lord have mercy, I've been inside some pretty madt houses here in Lagos but this was insane. Like, completely insane. It was like I just stepped on another planet where everything is more advanced and perfect. Now here's the fascinating part.
Hubby hasn't always been rich or this well off. In fact when they got married some five years ago or so he was pretty average. He was living in a flat or something and was earning a banker's wage. Shortly after they got married he took a bold step and quit his job and decided to start his own business. Now this particular line of business involves a lot of risk, which most people don't like taking. But like most risk takers, today this young man is extremely successful and is living in the lap of wealth and luxury. The kids attend one of the really expensive schools in town, you know those kind of schools where after a term you suddenly notice your child has phoneh and the vocabulary has been greatly expanded. LOL, that kind of school.
When I see things like this I smile because it reminds me that situations can change for the better in the snap of a finger. Also marrying someone who has got potential is much better than marrying for money. Money can varnish in the blink of an eye, hard work and potential is sure to pay off and yield unending dividend.
Anyways when Uju and I were leaving this lady gave us tubers of yam, bunches of plantain, garden eggs and ose-oji (ground groundnut and pepper paste) and ukwa. But then she also gave us very large chunks of cakes and chocolate. So off Uju and I went with our largesse (she'll be staying at mine for some days). We got home and popped open a bottle of wine and that should have been enough. Yet we couldn't ignore that we had large mounds of red velvet, chocolate and coconut cake barely a few feet away. That's how I ruined my near perfect diet and drowned in creamy sugary heaven at 11pm last night.
That's that but that's not the worst of it all. So as you guys know I've been single for sometime. What you guys don't know is that I've been loving it. That feeling of numbness, not needing, wanting or missing anyone, not even remembering what it feels like. That feeling is blissful, believe me. A while back I came to accept that being alone isn't half bad and I actually believe this. It occurred to me that the void in my life right now cannot be filled by a man, this void can only be filled by purpose. So getting a man or not is very secondary to me at the moment. Yet Uju came and reminded me of what it felt like to have 'someone'.
I was reminded of that fluttery feeling in your belly while you guys spend hours talking on the phone about everything and nothing, the secret jokes and code words, the laughter that can be invoked only by someone you love so deeply, the longing in your voice that can only be cured by finding yourself warmly at his side, the indescribable feeling of knowing that you love someone and that someone would move mountains just to see you smile... Yeah that feeling. That beautiful feeling.
And I hate it! Fack you Uju for reminding me. I haaaaaattttttteeee yew! LOL. But then this time around I looked at my friend with gratitude and not envy. Gratitude because I'm so happy for her that she's found love and I pray this time it works. No envy because I'm still too comfortable ensconced in my bubble of solitude and not not ready to step out just yet.
But that's enough about me and my drama. How was your weekend guys? Did you get up to anything exciting? Do you have something to be particularly thankful for?