Now, another advantage of having a blog besides getting the occasional freebies and pretty cupcakes, is being able to ask questions you've always wanted to ask and knowing you would have real people give you real answers.
I hear and read about premenstrual syndrome and I wonder if people are talking about women like myself or aliens from Pluto. I say, maybe I shouldn't question it because when it comes to all those womanly, hormonal things, God singled me out and blessed me. So, even in adolescence I never experienced things like acne, pimples or breakouts. And I don't experience them before or during my periods either. Speaking of periods I've hand menstrual pain aka MP only once in my life, when I was about 17 or so.
Once every month, when I was growing up, I'd watch my sister writh in pain, scream, shout, cry, puke, swear, curse, flail and hyperventilate as she would curl into a foetal position, hot water bottle pressed closely to her mid section and look up at the ceiling with tears running down her face, as though an image of God's smirking face was plastered there, as she'd cry out over and over again; is it fair? God is it fair? Is it fair? What did I do? Is it fair?
And I'd sit in a corner, crying, because her pains were so painful and I could almost feel them, but particularly because there was nothing I could do to help, I didn't even understand what was going on.
One day while she cried and I mopped sweat off her forehead with a wet cloth (it wasn't helping but I just couldn't sit down and watch her cry anymore, I had to do something, anything), I muttered, pleading with her for the thousandth time to tell me what put her in this miserable agony every month. Through the tears she smiled painfully at me and said "don't worry, one day you will understand".
And it is my utmost testimony this afternoon that I have never had to understand! Praiiiiiiiiiiiiiise The Lord!!! LOL
Seriously though, I've just never got it. I've never had those overly heavy flows or long periods. I get confused and/or irritated when my friends say they couldn't keep an appointment because they're on their periods. I'm like Huh? It's particularly confusing because it's not necessarily about the pain, being on their period seems to temporary take away their zeal to live... I have no idea why, just like I have no idea what people mean when they say they're "premenstrual".
See what Jamie Varon wrote in an article titled "How It Feels When PMS Takes Over Your Brain".
"You’ll be going about your life normally. Make breakfast, go to work, come home, eat dinner, watch something on Netflix. Then, one day, seemingly out of nowhere, your mood will darken. You will wake up in a cloud, but not a good cloud, not a fun cloud. No. You will wake up in the middle of a fucking storm cloud and everything you liked the previous three weeks will be EVERYTHING YOU HATE.
Everyone will bother you. You will question why you ever liked people…ever. You will get mad over the most nonsensical shit, like who the fuck is this guy sleeping in my bed? Oh, he’s my boyfriend? YEAH STAY ON YOUR OWN SIDE OF THE BED, DUDE.
You will think of all the stereotypes of women PMSing and you will hate that you have turned into all of them. Damn it! The stereotypes are right… every single month. You will turn into a pre-menstrual Hulk and start smashing shit (in your mind) and you will curse the day you were conceived and had to be born with the capabilities to experience PMS because fuck anyone that doesn’t have to deal with this!"
In another article on Brainworld, Andrea says she finds her PMS to be emotionally draining. “It’s honestly like I become a different person. The normal me is gone for five days a month, and the new me rears its ugly head, cries, wants her husband to validate her and doesn’t want to get out of bed, doesn't want to go to work or have to talk to anybody,” she says. She tried taking antidepressants, but they made her feel even worse.
Reading these, along with every other thing I've read and heard about PMS makes me wonder; is this actually real; is it something you experience and can relate to, or is it a myth...? or simply "white people problems"? Ladies, help please.