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Lost- Anonymous.





At a point where nothing seems to make sense
And all the truth and facts I thought I knew all seem like illusions
Losing sense and sight of everything I once considered important and essential
Losing the me that makes me me
Even my connection to the Almighty is getting blurred and hazy
I am like a ship with a broken sail 
Floundering aimlessly at sea
Tossed and battered by the unending waves the sea called life seem to throw at me
My strong and firm foundation is showing signs of wear
And it is now being revealed as the mire it truly was
I still hide behind a facade of strength 
And display a confidence I really don't possess
The curtain is already bursting at its seams
And the fragile walls are showing signs of crack
And the question remains how long can I keep up with this pretence. 




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One of us sent this to me and requested that I share it. If I'd read this months ago I would have thought I wrote it, I know this feeling too well. I have been here before and I can tell you for free, it's not the best place to be. Darling Anon, more than anything else now is the time you need to strengthen your connection to the Almighty. Also it might be time to do some soul searching, some serious introspection. Ask yourself some hard questions and make sure you find answers. As you've already said the walls are beginning to show signs of crack and something must be done before it finally caves in. It might also help to figure out if something happened just before you began to feel this way. Some times we might think there's no correlation between our current psyche and a past event, but if you dig deep and think dispassionately you might find that there is. And there lies the key that sets you free. 

I don't know your story, but I wish you well. 

Comments

  1. Hmmmm, maybe this is me last week Saturday!

    Right now, my walls are shattered, destroyed & devastated! U know that feeling of Great Loss & regret, accompanied with a Deep pit in ur stomach filled with crawling things, U keep puking at your personal disgust, Ur head & eyes hurts like the other 8planets are on it, U look at the heavens & U could feel/see God's tears Thanks to your Wrongdoing!
    U cant face those U Love esp family & U most certainly can't equate the guilt, shame & fear to anything!
    U sleep for just 20 minutes every night & the nightmare is worse than staying up & wailing!!!

    Dear Anon, don't get to this stage. I'm just recovering, 10% & moving forward...

    Yeah, I'll need Ur Prayers...

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    1. I don't know what you are going through Ruth, I know you will be fine. My little prayers are with you and the last time I checked... When I call on Jehovah my Father, HE answers me.

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    2. Whatever it is you are going thru,you will be fine Ruth
      I will put you in my prayers

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    3. For there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus, who are called by his name....what ever it is do not live in condemnation, don't allow the devil to rob u of ur sonship. There is Nothing, absolutely nothing u can do to make God love u less. It is well with u Ruth. U can't even fathom the incredible plan God has for ur life, please live in this truth, u are truly loved! E-hugs xxx

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    4. It is well Ruthie! *hugs* :*

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    5. Stay strong Ruth....I know you will come out of this victorious and better...I already see this situation as a testimony... God loves you... hugs babe

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    6. Hang on Ruth, the ray of sunlight is around the corner, I was going to make a comment abt you days ago but I let it slide not to overstep.

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    7. You are a very strong lady, Ruth. Don't ever forget this and don't you forget also that you a source of strength and inspiration to others.

      All the best dear.

      -F

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  2. Dear Anon,

    You may think that the world doesn't feel what you feel, it may seem like "we" are just gazing from the outside, but there are some of Us that may have had it worse than you, always remember that.

    Counsel-
    If you ever have questions, ask HIM(God)
    If you ever feel lost, talk to HIM(God)
    If you ever need Answers, go to HIM(God)

    Really there is no other choice than him, if there is... Let me know dear so I can't solicit for you. Having done all to stand, Stand!

    Perhaps this just a write up, I commend you greatly.

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  3. Sorry I am all over this post, I only got online.
    I want to say a big thanks to the wonderful blog visitors who wished and prayed for me on my birthday, I am indeed grateful.

    @Tee, I read your prayers and it brought to my eyes, it was short but sincere, God bless you more.

    Yes this was my best birthday so far...HE heard my story, HE caused the Heavens to smile at me.

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  4. Trust God and ur miracle will be on the way soon dear Anon

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  5. Thanks everyone for the care and kind words, really appreciate it. What I wrote is part fiction and partly real. Not really in any big situation. The main issue I am having actually is my connection to God, the words wont form so I lose delight in praying, and this connection is really Important to me cos I know it is in God that I can find and fulfill purpose. I feel purpose less at the moment

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    1. We have all been there I think. What u do in this situation is to keep pushing, God seeks such connections even more than u. Don't give up, spend time in worship, stay in His presence even if u can't pray, just focus on God. Pray the Bible, pray psalms, keep trying, worship is very powerful, when u feel like stopping don't stop.
      The enemy just wants to kill, steal and destroy ur purpose, don't let him. Because without a connection to the source u won't get to where u need to be. Don't give up my dear. Every one has dry patches xxx

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    2. Reading this a song came to mind, pls Google it or check on you tube.
      Lyrics- draw me, draw me lord, I come running after you [2*]

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    3. I have learnt to sing praises when i feel disconnected to Him. I sing when i am confused, i sing when i am sad and somehow peace creeps into my soul and the words i need to say form. May you find your preace

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  6. As crazy as it may sound... Listen to Eminem's recent songs! He's actually a complete success story, the fall and the rising up over again

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  7. Ruthy, dont know how you are feeling but God is working it all out for your good. It will definitely end in praise,

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