Have you ever felt like just packing it in? Yes, "it". Whatever it is. Your job, your blog, your business, your passions... Have you felt like that?
Well once in a while I really feel like just pressing delete on the blog and moving on with my life. I guess I'm not supposed to admit it but hey, whatever, some days I just want to pack it in.
It isn't always easy; the days you wake up just not in the mood, the days you wake up in the mood but have no ideas for a post, the days you wake up not in the mood and have no ideas for posts, the days you post but know your posts make no sense, the days it seems your readers all just took a break from you, the days you check your page views and it's half what it used to be, even though your efforts are double what they used to be... The days you just get tired of having to spring up ideas for posts on a daily basis... On those days, among others, I just want to pack it in.
And what do I do when I feel that way?
I wish I could tell you some really inspiring cool story. But that would be a lie. I sulk, I wallow in self-pity, I overeat, I stay away from the net, I take a few gulps of vodka, I ask "why me?", I remind myself of others who stopped (blogging) but didn't suddenly die, I sleep and forget all my sorrows.
But I allow these rather defeatist moments last only a moment. Then
I remember why and how I started
I remember that if there was no greater purpose I wouldn't have started in the first place
I remember where I'm going. This isn't it, I'm not there yet. So I #keepmoving
I know that those who stopped (blogging) didn't die but if I give this up something inside me might.
I remember those articles that say most bloggers didn't attain any great success within the first four years of blogging, so I've got to #keeppushing
I know that if I fall off this wagon getting back on might be impossible
I remind myself that it's human to feel this way.
And that's what I want you to know, it's human to want to roll everything up in a bundle, toss it aside and walk away in a different direction. But if you're certain there is a destination and you're on the right road, then stay the course. Yes, you should be certain. Otherwise, it may not be the worst idea in the world to actually pack it in. What's important is that you're tossing it aside for something else. You actually start to wither away when you do nothing.
I remember the husband in My Wife and Kids telling his wife in one episode "It's not that I don't love you, I love you. In fact I love you so much that sometimes I just need to take a break from you". Yeah, weird as it may sound, you can love something yet still need an occasional breather.
It's ok to want a little space from a project you're very passionate about. Sometimes you need that air to clear your head and enhance your creativity.
So yes, this is me, Thelma, and on some days I want to pack it in. But those days are very few and far between. On most days I love what I'm doing, I love where I'm going, I'm excited by the possibilities and too grateful to the likes of Ruthielicious (who somehow finds the most interesting comments to the dullest posts (yes, some posts are dull) (I'd be the first to admit it) LOL) and many others, to just "rapture" my blog.
And I hope that if you ever feel like giving up on something that you love, you find inspiration and courage to stay the course.
Remember that your best is never in your past, 'I get am before' nor be property. God's plan for you is never in your past, it's still ahead, it is yet to come. 1Cor 2:9. #KeepMoving.