I've never been one to make new year resolutions but I think I might be making one this year. Truth be told, blogging can get tedious but as with most things in life, one must push oneself. In the last week, quite a number of my readers took it upon themselves to mail me about certain concerns pertaining to the blog. Among these concerns, two kept recurring in the various emails.
The decline in the number of posts (excerpt from one of the mails; Pls. Can you get back to the old you, and update d blog frequently? I'm tired of refreshing 100xs a day without anything new popping up. Sometimes it's annoying. I know you may not be in a very bright place now, but you have readers...")
The impersonal nature of the posts. (Excerpt from another mail; you're doing a good job but what attracted me to your blog is how you shared your personal experiences. Most of them reflected things I was going through and it was comforting to know I'm not alone, but now you don't do that anymore")
First off, I'd like to thank everyone who takes time to mail me. Sometimes when you admonish me, like a recalcitrant child I sulk and get upset. But then I realize that you're mailing out of love for the blog, and that's really awesome!
...So I don't like new year resolutions but here and now I'm resolving to do better. To the first mailer, I honestly cannot promise that things would go back to how they used to be two years ago, as you requested. I cannot promise to put up three, four, five posts a day like I did back then. But my promise is that everyday from here on, except when there are reasons beyond my control, I would have at least one post a day. I'm sure on most days I would have more than one but let me make promises I'm sure I can deliver.
As per the second issue, the one a lot of people mailed me about, and some even left in the comment section; that the blog is now impersonal. That's very true. I cannot quite promise you that things would change.
When I started blogging, I loved to share (and sometimes tended to overshare) because
-I knew that other people had similar experiences and it would help them to know they weren't alone,
-it was therapeutic for me sometimes
-it had some entertainment value
-I loved the idea of a personal blog where we could all share each other's experiences, learn from them, talk about them, interact or whatever.
For a long time I enjoyed this but I stopped because I soon learnt that
This is so true! Some people genuinely care, others would just use you and do feemshow while they;
2. Judge. I'm the farthest from perfect but my intentions behind sharing were noble, still doesn't stop some people from judging me, forming brash opinions, castigating me and so on and so on and so on.
3. People think you're looking for pity. This was the main factor that made me stop sharing. I've had some unpleasant experiences, there's nothing anyone here can do to change that. I share because I just happen to be a very open person. But some people began to misconstrue it and accused me of seeking for pity and sympathy. You know, that practically made me STOP!
4. The community became bigger and I began to feel overexposed. This is every blogger's prayer, growth and increase. But for a very personal blog, it doesn't often augur well. The bigger the blog became the less inclined I was to share. I began to feel somewhat naked and inevitably I started to share less.
5. What's the point anyways? Yeah sometimes it all feels so pointless, why share your life just so that people can be entertained?
I feel like I've not done a great job at really expressing why the blog became impersonal but at least now you know I had my reasons. I guess I'd just have to strike a balance because I would really love to keep my readers happy.
Quick question; do I really give y'all the impression that I'm unhappy? I've not been able to figure out why most mails I get come with a tone of commiseration...