I have dated just one guy which started from freshman year (at 18 years old ) till we graduated college.he is my first love, first sex et al..I broke up with him because of distance after school and he wasn't emotionally available and could never express himself to me. We are both age mates, after 4 years of dating and broke up for a year, we got back together as he showed me he was ready emotionally which has been great as he is a complete person in that aspect.
Now we are both 24 years old,he is job hunting and I am in grad school. We have been having lots of issues lately which stems from us being age mates and dating and also long distance now (will have to fly for 6 hours to meet). He has told me he wants to spend the rest of his life with me but at the same time he does not want to waste my time and make me wait while he gets himself together. I do love this man, I am comfortable with him, he is my best friend, confidante, lover, its just peaceful with when I'm with him ..you get the gist but is love ever enough?
I sometimes feel i am missing out on many things but I am too scared to let go of him. I did previously, it was really tough but i did not die,I healed until he came back again. I also think I would love to be with someone older (they say with age comes wisdom, experience and initiative) which i think he lacks but I don't blame him as he's still 24. I think we are at a place where we are trying to figure out ourselves, is it time to finally let go and never turn back ? will this be a very big mistake on my part ? i fear I may never find anyone close to him who accepts my flaws and just be myself.
My mom has told me to let him go, his folks has also told him not to be too invested in someone at this age as he needs to find his feet and settle himself which i think every parent would say, I know I wouldn't want my son talking about marriage at 24 when you have no job/ bearing in life..