Last night was lit!
Well was it really? Anyone who was there with me would be baffled to hear me say this. You see I went to the club and it was banging, the DJ was on fire and the people certainly knew how to party. There were bottles of champagne, VS and Remy Martin flying here and there, as it often does in VIP.
I'd really planned to have a good time. My friends weren't too keen but by 11pm and I made sure everyone was getting dressed and set to go, so you'd have thought I was going to set the dancefloor ablaze.
Well, my feet didn't even touch the dancefloor. I was going to let go of insecurities, sip some cognac and dance like it was my birthday but when I got there things didn't go quite as planned. Just when I thought to hell with it, I'm going to DANCE! Some millennials walked in and these girls would give Kaffy a run for her money. Nne na so I respect myself and just nyash down till about 3am when everyone was set to leave.
I woke up this morning still beating myself up, what happened to dancing like no one is watching? What happened like dancing just for fun and happiness and nothing else?
So yes, there are things I really wish I was good at, and they are;
Dance. Nobody knows how much my heart desires this. Sometimes after a few drinks when I hit the floor someone's jaw drops in wonderment; so you can dance? But this happens only once in 5 years or so. Most times I go out I'm busy looking angry and irritated, you'd think I'm just angry with the world or unfriendly. You wouldn't know that I'm just busy being envious, wishing I could dance with reckless abandon like everyone else, and not look like a fool.
Hide emotions. When I'm upset, I'm upset. I wish I could conceal my emotions, like be mad yet smile sunnily. Or even be happy yet keep calm. I've always had this challenge but the older I get the worse it becomes. In fact I only just received a text with the following words.
People person. I'm compassionate, empathetic and have good emotional intelligence but I just not much of a people person. This sometimes makes me awkward to be around.
Fast reader. In secondary school I was in awe of those people who read mills&boons in a day or two. Some even read two in one day, how they did it, I still do. not. know. I want to have super powers toooooo!
xxx. I think we all (most people at least) have that one thing we did better in bed or during segzy time. Lol.
So that's mine, there's loads more actually but I don't want to bore you with mine. I'd rather hear yours. Tell us!