Last week I made a new friend. Well I happen to be 'seeing' her brother so we knew of each other but we'd never met or spoken. She was coming into town for an interview and her brother asked me to sort out her logistics and possibly keep her company. I paid her a visit at her hotel room, just so I could tell him yes when he asked if I went to see his sister, like I knew he would. I did that to fulfil all righteousness but I ended up falling in friendship!
Have you ever met someone and instantly hit it off? Oh wow! We met for the first time and what I'd planned to be a ten-minute visit lasted until the next day, yeah I spent the night LOL. Same thing the next day, after her interview we went out on a girly date, did some shopping and the back to the hotel room for some gossip, girl chat and a slumber party.
During this time she asked "Why aren't you in Nollywood?".
Very weird question, right? But I started laughing because you see, I'd wanted to be an actress!
Like, I didn't just "want to", I actually made moves towards being one. I chased scripts but met roadblocks in form of men first wanting to me warm their beds, something I was averse to. And then I applied for Amstel Malta Box Office, went for auditions, got to the final stage and then didn't get called back. But two of the judges on my panel kept in touch and made promises to help me get ahead in the industry even without AMBO, something about it didn't sound savory at the time so I didn't pursue that lead, besides law was getting tougher and I had to focus on passing my papers.
Yes, Law. The course my father filled in my JAMB form giving me no say whatsoever in the matter that's my own life.
So in the last few days I've been thinking about it, the things I really wanted to be, the things I'm naturally great at. Acting would have been my first choice. I also love performing too, I still remember my days of miming Keith Sweat's Twisted on stage in FGGC Ipetumodu before QC, and days of stage plays, both there and in OQ. I'm naturally shy but Lord do I love an audience. I could never suffer stage fright, be it an audience of 10 or 10,000. Another thing I really wanted to do, even though that wouldn't have come naturally was to produce music.
Do I have regrets? Not really. I mean on some days I wonder what life would be like if I'd actually towed that path, where would I be now? What would I have? WHO would I be?
On other days I smile, life is okay anyways.
So let's talk about it people, what did you want to be when you were younger, is that what you're doing now? Do you feel like you'd be better off in another career? Why aren't you doing what you wanted to do; your parents or other factors?
What did you want to be when you grow up? Is that what you are now?