This mail was s'posed to be a dear thelma post but as writeright is the order of the day...
So my story is this, I think I like girls. All my life I've been straight, never really fantasized about sex with a female or anything like that. Two years ago I dated someone more like a fling and we tried some crazy stuff, to be specific we had a threesome twice. I never knew the other girls and in both cases they were lesbians. They were pretty okay but I was not interested in them remotely. But on both occasion they gave me oral sex and I must confess that it was mind blowing, I finally realized that all the men that had been doing it to me before who thought they're experts are just learners. Both times my orgasm was the best av had in my life but it didn't move me to try to touch the girls or even be tempted to sleep with girls. I was still very straight, even though one of the girls tried to contact me later for us to see again, I refused and even blocked her on my whatsapp.
So I was convinced that I'm 100 percent straight. I love guys and their sexual organs and their bodies and everything. Did I also add that I got married early this year?
I got transferred to another branch this year and there's this girl in my office that is literally giving me wet dreams. From the first day I saw her I felt a strong connection (sexual) to her. After that I kept trying to make sure our paths cross cos I was confused abt what I felt but the more we saw the stronger my feelings are. I don't know what it is about her, I have met hotter girls or women, in fact without meaning to toot my own horn I think I'm even prettier than she is. But there is something so sensual about her that turns me on. She is just so feminine and naturally seductive, it's the little things about her like her long lashes (natural), full lips, the way she talks or laughs, her cleavage and the way she walks. Also she looks like she likes sex a lot, I'm not sure why I think so cos she's not loose nor has any guy in the office claimed to her slept with her.
I tried to ignore it but I noticed I started fantasizing about her a lot and anytime I see her I start to get wet. In fact when I'm making love to my hubby and I think about her the orgasm is heaven on earth.
This is where it gets interesting. TGIF in September we all went out and had a few drinks. I think I was tipsy or I pretended to be tipsy, because I put my hand on her thigh and let În stay there on purpose. She then opened her legs wider and pulled my hand into her thigh. Wow I was to shy to do anything so I removed my hand and went home shortly after.
But I can't stop thinking about her, she has me the green light, it's like she knows that I've been having a crush on her and she seems not to mind as in the office now she seems to be flirting with me. We work in different departments but I'm ahead of her at work, but she's a grown adult, about 28.
I want to explore my options with her but I don't know if I should, please what do you think? Especially anyone who has been in my shoes. I also don't think my hubby will mind too much if I get caught, it's not really like its actually cheating. Or is it? Please let us have a honest mature conversation. Children and Judgy-judgy people please stay away.