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Wednesday, 30 November 2016

5 Things I'm Dealing With Right Now.




I went for a walk this morning, I walked for about an hour and when I got closer home I saw an old man with several teeth missing smiling widely at me. "You travelled" he said. It wasn't a question. I took out the earpiece from my ear to make sure I heard him properly. I'd never seen him before. "You travelled" he repeated. I smiled hesitantly, I didn't know who he was and I didn't want to be rude. "Yes" I said and he last confidently. "I know you travelled. We have not been seeing you. We see you every morning, sports woman" he said and we both laughed. "Now that you are back I hope we will continue seeing you in the morning" he said and I assured him that he would. 

LOL @ sports woman. 

A pair of trainers and Nike tracks doesn't a "sports woman" make. 

I wish... 😂

All I do is walk for an hour and listen to audio books. Ok I jog occasionally but my doctor asked me not to for now...

It's interesting how we never know who's watching us, and a little bit creepy. LOL. 

Anyways, on getting home I tried to decide my next courses of action and it was then that I was hit by this feeling that I don't like. That feeling of incapacity... 

My life would be just a little perfect if I didn't have to deal with certain things. These are things I wish I could wish away. In fairness to myself I actually don't just accept them as my reality, and everyday I WORK on it changing, but so far I'm yet to record any meaningful lasting success in recent times. 

They are;

1. Writer's block. When last did you read any fiction from me? I seem to be suffering from a serious case of writer's block and it's been going on for months. When I started blogging and before then, I could sit down and write 5 short stories in an hour. I wrote opinion pieces like I was chewing gum. In the past month I've been struggling with something that was naturally gifted to me; writing. It's one of the most frustrating things to have to deal with, especially when you know that you have ideas and stories inside of you. These things are so real in your head that you can literally taste them on your tongue. Yet the minute you put pen to paper it's as though the ink and your creative juices simultaneously dry up suddenly. I need to WRITE again! 

2. Sweet sweet tooth! Yes so I exercise almost everyday and sometimes I'm able to diet and lose tons of weight. In recent months however, my sweet tooth seems to have gotten even sweeter and I'm finding it harder and harder to stay off the sweet stuff. I know I'm harming my body but it's like a drug, when I'm consuming these things it's like dopamine is released in my brain and I practically lose all reasoning 😭. I instantly forget that it's bad and a hindrance to my weight and healthy living. The moment I'm done eating I'm suddenly filled with guilt and remorse... Until I see the next glazed donut 😣

3. I know where I want my career to go, I know. But...

4. I need new people in my life, I'm tired of the old ones... Or the old ones are tired of me. 

5. Migraines. The way I pop Advil these days... I just dunno mehn! I'm tired of dealing with these migraines. When it starts my head feels like a China plate that was dropped and cracked, and each crack bleeds. 😣



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So these 5 are my less than perfect situations. Let's talk about what's going on in your life. Share with us those things that you wish were different, those things that could be a lot better. Those things you don't want to carry over to the next year perhaps...





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45 comments:

  1. I can be your friend just buy me lunch 😂😂😂.

    www.pynk360.com

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    1. Miss Pynk, just lunch? I will even add breakfast and dinner 😂

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  2. I just wish my mum is still here with me. It would have been perfect/different
    I miss her everyday although I don't really know her - she died when I was like 6years or so

    Always makes me shed tears - is like I can't still let her go.

    #IfWishesWereHorses

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    2. sorry about your loss.

      She's in a better place keeping watch over you and amazed at how much you repping her.

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    3. Beloved so sorry for your loss. I'm sure she's still with you. Hugsss 😘😘😘

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  3. lol. That old man is a freak. Probably there every morning staring at your ass while you walk. And he has missed seeing your booty. lool.

    1) I think writer block is growth for a writer. What your brain is trying to do is to do better than your past stories. Your brain has decided to not settle for less.
    2) Abeg eat all the sweet stuff you want. All you gotta do is embrace and accept the consequences. You will gain weight. And you will double up on your work out.
    3) As for career matter.... na God hand e dey.
    4) I can be your new friend. But Im a bad influence...so your boy friend wouldnt approve.
    5) How do people have migraines. I dont get it. I thank God for my head, I rarely have headaches.

    Peace.

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    1. 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 Who the hell are you Kon???? Lmao!

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    2. Lmao @bad influence and boyfriend wouldn't agree, baba kon well-done

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    3. Kon please let's be friends so that when you become a celebrity you will remember me, or even make me your manager 😉😉

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    4. 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

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    5. 😂😂😂😂😂😂

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  4. Migraines? Is your blood level ok? Drink lots of water and eat vegetables like a rabbit and you'll be fine.
    A Girl

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    1. Yes I ran tests last week and everything seems to be fine; blood, BP, blood sugar etc. I'll try the water and rabbit thingy. Thanks 😀

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  5. I wish my relationship with God would be better. I know I can't do without him. I don't even want to have to do without him. I just wish we can be much closer on a very intimate level.


    I wish I can be calmer and quiet. Iv never been the calm one. Always everywhere, excited and chatty. I need to turn it down 10 notches. I wish I can be calm, quiet and level headed. Each time I decide to be calm/quiet today, everything changes in almost 20mins after I have made the decision. I just want to be quiet.


    I need to know where my life is headed. Discover purpose. I wake up every morning and I feel I'm not where I'm suppose to be. I love my job. no doubt. Maybe not love but it's not bad at all. Of course there are days you just want to go back to bed and be like fuck that shit!!! They can sack me if they like 😂
    but on most days, I look forward to the pressure/rush/thrill. But I know there's more. Maybe I just need to start from somewhere(here) to prepare me for the journey ahead. Still., I need to know what path to take because iv read that discovering purpose is not a destination but a journey. But where is the path?

    After 7 years of friendship, and few years of crushing in between... he wants to take it to another level. I thought I had moved on which would have even made it easier to turn it down and stick to our wonderful platonic relationship but I have not. Now I'm scared. I'm scared that if we cross that line and it doesn't work out, we might never be able to go back to where we are now. I'm also scared that he is already an idol in my heart and even if I pray... I might not listen because I have an idol in myself heart.

    I have said too much.

    *Anonymous mode activated*

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    1. I like this, 'I don't even want to have to do without him.'

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    2. If you are not naturally calm and quiet then why do you want to be that?
      How many people have really discovered purpose? I think this purpose thing is over rated. All Ill say is just prepare your mind...because the thing that will make your heart fulfilled can come at anytime so you have to be ready to grab it. Stay prepared.
      Do you love the guy? Thats the answer..

      Peace

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    3. Anon please don't pray to be calm and quiet, it can be very frustrating. People like me envy people like you. We wish we can just let go and talk and let loose but something constrains us, and that can be very frustrating believe me.

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  6. A few of my major issues...

    1. Dealing with annoyingly itchy eyes, migraine and pain in the last couple of months. Its not easy seeing writings that are close.

    2. Losing weight despite the effort.

    3. So many other things....the two above are the ones that constantly show up day in n day out.

    The bigger issues i know will be sorted out in due time.

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    1. This weight thing, may God help us. I was just looking at the pictures from last year's commissioning and how my JEOF Tshirt was very loose. In fact if you had given me days before the event I would have given it to a tailor to slim-fit. Then I wore it last month and the same Tshirt was hugging my body like Lycra 😣

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    2. 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 @ the last sentence.

      Oya let's hug each other Thelma 🤗🤗🤗🤗
      We both need it.

      My weight has been like this for 18months now 📈📉📈📉📈📉 o ti su mi.
      Clare, about your eyes... hmnnn! When I start with mine, you'll think I want to pluck it out . It is well

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  7. Lol... see that second problem, me and you both. I am gaining weight like crazy but even though I know what's causing it, I can't seem to stay away from food and drinks. The only good thing about the weight gain is that a good portion of the fat went to the right place *wink wink*...lol I need to be more disciplined!

    I wish the doctors would find a cure for cancer already!

    My career, I have a pretty good idea of where I want to be at age 40 but how to get to that point is what is eluding me right now. I can't seem to decide what area I want to specialise in and by extension, what course to do my masters in. It's been weighing on my mind lately and I need to make a decision fast! I don't want to do just any masters...

    The Experience! I don't know why but I'm so excited about this year's edition.
    PS: If you attend HOTR and you can get me VIP tickets, I'll be very grateful...

    Work... I started a new job 3 months ago, it's been great but I'm learning just how different and complicated human beings are. Some people would go out of their way just to get you in trouble or deny you a promotion/favour from up top. It's crazy, and sad..

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    1. Be deceiving yourself ooo😂😂😂
      Right place kor 😂😂😂😂 left place ni 😂😂😂😂 smh! Academic masturbation.

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    2. 😂😂😂😂

      I'm not laughing

      kene francis

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  8. Haven't had sex for two years now and this past week has been hard for me.Horny 24/7, seems my body is just shouting please have sex. 2) can't deal with the hike in prices generally seems I might have to elope from 9ja soon

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    1. Hahaha! 2 years? Well done. Have you been masturbating tho?

      Peace

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    2. Depends on why you're not having sex. When you've made a decision and you start feeling like you're about to fall off the wagon, remind yourself why you started in the first place and the things you stand to gain. That's usually a good way to stay on track.

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  9. Finally registered for an an exam but to read has turned to hard labour.......

    Still don't know if I am going the right part, I have decided to try different things that I have interest in and see if one or more clicks.

    Finally, I need to find my part back to the Almighty.

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  10. Oh! How i wish to be independent again, away from home..just working & hanging with very few friends. I enjoy my solitude a lot and i'm in desperate need of it! Home and everything going on in it distracts me! I need a new job, away from home!
    Finally, i want to have a deeper relationship with God. I'm trying but i really want to be better, i want to know Him more, to feel like He truly lives in me.

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  11. Ok, my senior colleague Kene Biko come in. I see popping Advil and that gets me worried. Please get a checkup. I will advice you stop the Advil and find other ways to deal with your headache like resting, using a cold towel etc maybe Tylenol maybe a better alternative

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    1. I woke up with a headache and the first thing I did was take Advil, I wanted to take Panadol instead but I've run out of Panadol. I will try Tylenol instead. I dunno what's causing it, I've come to accept it as normal, I'm tired. Thanks a lot!

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  12. I miss talking with her every weekend as I brief her how my week has been and plans for the week ahead.I always look forward to her encouraging words..Rest on momie..I miss you

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    1. I can just imagine, having a mother can be a beautiful thing. May she continue to rest in peace. Hugs hun.

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  13. 1. I wish I could get away from everything and everyone, as in just be in an environment where am the only human or living specie, trust me, I have a lot going on that's presently driving me crazy and I can't seem to fathom why I wanna be alone .
    2. I have an idea of where I wanna be but what steps to take in getting there is what I don't know or will I say the fear of taking those steps? Trust me, it's crazy and annoying.
    3. I have lost interest in exercising,that zeal has suddenly left me and I have gone from 72kg to 81,i just wish it would come back but I guess I have a lot going on for me right now that just takes the exercise thingy from me, but I hope to start doing that again though.
    3. Have you ever wished you didn't come from your present family? Yes that's how I feel right now, the pressure is so mad that I wish I never came from my family, I still love them though.
    4. My relationship with God, ohhh I have lost it, even without being told I know,i pray,i am still active in my department in church but you know that feeling of just being all these but knowing that there is more to it than praying and being a worker. I just wanna go back to being the old Mabel (spiritually) God please, if you reading this, help me to get there.
    There are a lot but I guess the above are the ones bugging me or the ones that are so important.

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  14. My biggest is financial burden. I can't even begin to explain. Sad thing is, people who know what you have to cope with will still add their own issue to yours. I need to learn to say "No" more.

    I've given up on finding purpose. There was a time I allowed it bother me but not anymore. For all I know, I may be fulfilling purpose presently without even realizing it.

    I tried being quiet and reserved; I wanted to. But few days into it, people already concluded that I was battling some form of sadness.

    Weight gain. I'm bigger than where I used to be but .....! There are more serious issues needing attention.

    Career.......they say when you can envision it, you can achieve it. I think Nigeria defies logic!

    -F

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    1. Say this prayer with me: To whom much is expected, much should be given.

      It is well..

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  15. There are so many things am dealing with right now, I don't even know where to start from. I will just say to all those wishing and hoping just start working towards it, take a first bold step and everything will fall into place.

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  16. Hi

    Stumbled on your page. Me likey so me gonna follow.

    1. Life. I don't know the meaning of life anymore. Like what's the point anyway. The past year has been the most confusing for me. Nothing and I mean nothing has gone right. Just can't wait for 2016 to take its ugly black ass away. Wih 2017 comes hope. I want to believe that.
    Also I need new friends, I want to do more fun things, meet new people. Do fun things. But my bed is a hater and won't let me 😊

    2. I have been unemployed for the better part of this year. I am educated to post grad level. I moved back to Nigeria (part of why I hate this year) and I've regretted it sooooo many times but I know I'll rather be home than anywhere else. I just want a job. It's confusing.

    3. My bank account. Lol need I say more?

    4. Love. So many toasters not enough lovers. It seems the ones I like never stay. Like after three months something (often stupid) always goes wrong. I'm still a die hard romantic tho, just waiting for the next love affair 😂

    5. Writing. Like you, I love writing. Considered numerous times about starting a blog but I wonder what would I write about, who would read it. I'll prefer to do it for money, get paid for scripts but how does one start.

    I have 6.7.8.,9 etc but i'm just gonna end there

    Above al, i'm extremely grateful for my good Health and those of family friends and loved ones. Very few things would matter if u were on a sick bed.

    Ciao!

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    1. We love you already!!! Keep commenting pls 😍😘

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    2. Hope to see more of you. Akrwady rooting for you
      Pls adopt an anonymous moniker so we can identify you amidst the pool of anonymouses

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