Last night, I got home feeling extra tired. Mentally, emotionally maybe, not physically. I remembered I had a bottle of Black Label behind my bed, it had been there for months. I'm not much of an alcohol drinker, not the type to drink except occasionally when socializing so it wasn't any surprise that this one had been left unopened and forgotten for months. I ran downstairs, filled a cup with ice cubes, came back and poured myself a generous serving and began to sip, hoping all my thoughts would just fade into the background, until the next day at least.
I wanted to stop thinking about money for a while, and be able to sleep through the night. These days when I'm not working I'm thinking about work, and my sleep has gone to 4 hours and I wake up thinking. It's not a bad thing but I wanted a break. It worked.
But, next thing I know I'm now thinking about my ex. Thinking. Then I started to get angry. Very angry. I was mad. Infuriated. And then I thought it would be a brilliant idea to document that anger. I grabbed my iPad and started to stab the keyboard with my fingers. I let it all out. I vented, I talked, I questioned. I talked and talked some more. Every sentence had the word fuck in it. I wanted the world to feel my fury, I wanted the man to answer my questions.
And then I clicked publish.
I woke up this morning with a dull throbbing in my head, it was an Oops WTF have I done? moment. I quickly ran to my pad and opened it and ahhhhhh, thank God, maybe my fingers were shaky from drink and it didn't click publish after all, or maybe God just wanted to take pity on me.
As I read each line beads of sweat started to form on my forehead. What if I had posted this? 😳
The world would have known all my secrets by now oooo! 😂😂😂
TTB readers and even other visitors would read with their mouths wide open.
Jehovah I thank you. 💃💃
Because by now I would have dug a hole and jumped into it then tell Sasha Boné to use shovel and pour sand over my head.
Alcohol is a bascard. And to think that after writing it I read it severally and it looked like a good post to post. 😅
Kai, God just saved my ass.
It's still on my iPad. Would you like to read it? 🙈
Has alcohol ever made you do something you later regretted.
Spill the tea!!!!
If you've never ever tasted alcohol in your life say Bye. Sunshine and Kabuoy I'm waiting for your Bye's. LOL.