"... Thank you baby. See you later today"
"Ok hun 😘".
And at that moment I vowed that he wouldn't.
7pm. Phone call:
"I'm at that your place. Where are you?"
"*sniff sniff*. I'm home"
"Already? You're not coming here?"
"Nah. I had a long day. Had a meeting at Ikoyi club and had some wine afterwards so I felt a bit tired. I really needed to have some 'me' time so I came home early".
"Me time? Ikoyi club with who? What meeting? Who did you go to see there?"
I smiled contentedly. This is the first time ever he would show any sign of jealousy, or anything beyond mild affection.
"Some meeting..." I trailed off, deliberately sounding vague.
"Hmmm. Ok where are you? Come nau? I've told them to prepare your nsala soup". He said, almost pleadingly. The first time he would ever sound that way.
He was at our favorite local restaurant at Ikoyi. Roadhouse on Awolowo road, you should check it out, they make the best food in Nigeria! 😅
But not even their mega super nsala soup served with half ripe plantain and prepared with life chicken, thickened with stock fish and dried fish could break my resolve.
"Maybe tomorrow" I muttered noncommittally.
As the call ended I sank into my bed determinedly ignoring the hunger pangs. I'd had the wine on an empty stomach and now I was getting hungry. That Roadhouse nsala soup would have been the perfect remedy.
Yet something in me leapt. Little victories! I was so excited that I nearly jumped off my bed to do a jig.
You see, I had promised myself that tonight I would hold myself back. I would make myself unavailable. I can't always be there when he wants me. I should make him long for me, miss me, wonder... What is she doing? Who is she with? Is she even thinking about me? I should drive him crazy with uncertainty! Isn't that what that man said made him fall in love with Titilayo. Her unavailability, her independence, her indifference, the fact that she didn't need him? I hear that's what men like...
I smiled victoriously. YES!
Yet as I sat alone in the dark of my room I realized I really missed him. I wondered, is it worth it?