I'm shooting my shot this month, and no, it's not because of Valentine, it's because I'm taking my destiny into my own freaking hands.
I've bought my flight tickets and I've made my hotel reservation. We're going to settle this once and for all.
It's the most annoying thing ever, when people want you, just not the one you actually want. I tell myself maybe if he lives in Lagos... But he doesn't.
We talk and he has invited me to Abuja a couple of times, but just as a friend, I think. I can't have that, we cannot be just friends. And I don't attach much to his invites, he can afford to fly me in and give me a 5-star treatment just for the fun of it, and that doesn't sit well with me. That said, he hasn't made me an invitation in a while...
I've never felt this way about anyone else.
I met him in 2012, that's the only time I've seen him. We didn't even talk. He was at my friend's wedding, i saw him talk to her once, that was the only time I ever saw him but the minute I saw him I felt like I'd always known him, I felt like he's someone who's meant to play a major role in my life. I knew he wasn't just anybody.
So I was shell-shocked when I asked my friend who he was. "Oh, that's my cousin I've been telling you about, the one that's married to...."
Wait. What? He can't be married! He's supposed to be for me, there's a mistake somewhere! He. Cannot. Be. Married.
But you see, he was.
I never talked to him or saw him after that, but I never forgot him. Through the years he'd occasionally cross my mind; my love that never was. I would occasionally ask my friend how he was doing and she would say "fine".
Then suddenly sometime in 2017 my friend casually says in a conversation "Oh, did I tell you *Tariah got a divorce?"
Aha! It made sense. I was right after all, he was meant for me!
I was still with my ex so I didn't think much of it. However, a few months later I boldly asked my friend to give me Tariah's number. She said she would have to ask him first 😒
She did, and guess what, he said No. 😳😳😳
I felt let down but I knew it wasn't the end. A few weeks later my friend said Tariah had been asking of me, that he asked for my number but she refused, because she wanted to do shakara on my behalf.
I told her, sis, I did not send you any message. Give that man my number before you become unfortunate in life!
Two days later I got a message saying Hi, I didn't need to ask who it was, immediately responded; "I hear you've been looking for me".
And the rest, as they say, is history.
Well, not quite.
We chatted for a couple of hours and I confirmed what I'd always suspected, this guy is meant for me.
The next couple of days had us spending hours on the phone, talking. We connected. I felt like I'd always known him. I could talk to him about almost anything and he was very open with me too. The chemistry was real and as thick as my thighs.
Unfortunately he kind of switched off in December. We talk a few times but he sounds distant. He's still warm and witty and lively, but distant. I hear him asking me questions but I hear him not listening to my answers.
I've met a lot of people, and gone on the usual dates and occasionally get spoiled by a few. Oh, did I tell you my yoruba demon made a reappearance, and you know that one knows how to spoil a girl senseless... But in all this I cannot stop thinking about Tariah.
Realistically, I know nothing about him but he's everything I want. I cannot explain this, it makes no sense, I know. But I've never felt this way ever, like this person is supposed to be in my life. This is not a crush, it's an intuition.
And since I cannot wait for fate or Cupid, I've decided to take matters into my hands. I'm going to take a trip, I'm going to settle this.
It's either he's mine or he's not.
No, I'm not going to do anything overly bold or crazy. I simply intend for us to meet casually and talk over food or drinks and see if there's really something there, or if I'm merely delusional.
I don't even know what this guy looks like anymore, I mean I've only seen him once, for about 3 seconds. The thing is, in those 3 seconds I felt a lot. I felt his aura. He has a great aura, something my friend attests to as well. I also just felt, like, this is it!
So I'm going to find out.
I may or may not keep you posted, depending on how things go. 😚😚😚
And on this note, I wish you a truly tremendous February. I've just shared one specific thing I intend to do this month. Kindly return the favour, tell me yours. ❤️